Deliver Me!

 For the past few years God has always dealt with me concerning true deliverance. I have had many run ins with people who went to church, spirit was high, they shouted, rolled and crawled on the floor got up and still was dealing with the same thing they sought deliverance for. I have met those who go to church, go down to the alter for prayer go down dealing with one issue come up with many issues because the minister who laid hands on them transfered demons. I have met those who try to sow their pain away they believe if they sow there life savings the prayers that they pray will be answered and they'll be set free. Then there those who rely on the word from a Prophet but never get what they are seeking God for. What to do??

In 2008 when I was seeking God for deliverance I did all of those things except rolling on the floor and crawling. I began to get frustrated with myself, I thought somthing was seriously wrong with me. One night God woke me up and  began to deal with me with all the hell I sowed in my life. It seemed like I heard from God more at night than I did during the day. He told me if I were to confess all my wrong doings he could do something with me. It was painful reliving every moment and every situation, nevertheless God carried me through. After I confessed I apologized to everyone who I hurt, some received it others did not but God shared with me if they dont forgive you I wont forgive them. Next I went on a fast for 40 days, the choice of food wasnt the hard part the continuous showing me who I used to be was it, God had to completely uproot and resoil the foundation that was apart of the old me. One day while talking to God I felt an unction in my spirit to lay hands on myself :that was the beginning of a journey. I knew demons were real and they existed but I didnt know the full impact they had on people. To make a long story short I got delivered because of my Faith, I absolutely refused to let the devil have anymore foothold in my life. Some of it was scary, especially to have another voice speaking through you. It's just not normal and its down right embarassing but because I wanted to be set free I wouldnt give up. 

What does all this mean for me?

Because Church and People have become so tainted its hard to find those genuine spirited Men/Women of God to pray for you without risking getting sick, becoming possessed, or dying in the Spirit. God wanted me to remind his people that the same spirit in the bible that healed the sick, make the deaf hear, and raise the dead is inside of all of us who has received the gift of the Holyghost. The determining factor to all of this is FAITH. Don't wait on Sunday to get help, get help now! Man is not your deliverer, God is and God is inside of all of us!

Having Faith and Fighting no matter the Opposition with True Deep Confession and a Made up Mind = DELIVERANCE! Walk it out!

Pull up your (Pant)ies

I sat here for awhile trying to figure out how I was going to word this without offending anyone, but I've realized that someone's feelings will get hurt. I pray this subject helps atleast one person!

When someone says pull up your panties, you first think of SEX. Women keep your legs close, etc..this has nothing to do with that.

When you use the Bathroom you don't just sit on the toilet with your clothes on do you?( I would think not, most of us pull down our pants.)  As Wo(Men) we are already designed to be emotional beings. From time to time things in our life causes us to feel overwhelmed, frustrated, and disappointed however we shouldn't let those things keep us down.

Truth is, we can't change how we came into the world, what family we were birthed in, and the path God has for us, etc but you can Change how you react to life and its hiccups. Like using the restroom, sometimes things in our life can constipate us, but we have to PUSH through those situations until we receive a release. Next God then provides the tissue, he cleans up the mess or stains that is left when we release. Afterwards, does that mean you keep sitting there? No, you then have to GET UP an PULL UP your (Pant)ies. Underwear in this context is symbolic to Security. Where do you find Security? Is it in the Word? Praying, Praising, or Worshipping? Whatever it is excercise it in order to get you through to the next time you have to Use the Bathroom. No one can go to the bathroom for you, its a one man job. Quit trying to take others into the bathroom with you, and quit leaving your (Pant)ies down.

PUSH. RELEASE. and Move Foward!!

He Stole It, but God gave it Back : Rape

What a touchy subject, but like all my other posts I give you the stance from being Victim to becoming Victorious.

Dinah

Rape first started in Genesis:

Genesis 34

 ¹And Dinah the daughter of Leah, which she bare unto Jacob, went out to see the daughters of the land.
 ²And when Shechem the son of Hamor the Hivite, prince of the country, saw her, he took her, and lay with her, and defiled her.

I myself have been placed in a situation where a man decided to take advantage of me 5 weeks after I gave birth to my daughter. (The full story is in my Upcoming 2nd Book: Sleep'n with the Enemy) During the course of this situation no matter how much I cried and told him to stop he wouldn't. How could a man be so cruel, my daughter was within 10 feet of me lying in her crib. I hated myself, and I carried this pain for quite awhile. I often wondered what makes a Man do things of that nature to a Woman? Then I got angry with God, I had been in situations like this before, but now I was saved and trying to live righteous. Why when I ask God to stop him he didn't, did my tears mean nothing to him? I didn't flirt with this man, and in all actuality when he came to my home I was reading my bible. Lord didnt you see that this man threw the word from out my hands?? Where were those angels that you always talked about that were our protectors? Why God did you let this happen to me, do you not love me? Sometimes we will never know why things happen in that moment, but later on God shows us another plan for those besetting situations. God reminded me that although this man committed the physical act the demonic force behind it was the devil. Any bad thing/ situation comes from Satan, and because the enemy hates anything/ anyone who loves God he decided he would take what he thought was valuable to a woman: her dignity. THE DEVIL IS A LIAR!

Two years later I ran into a woman who had been raped, and I strongly believe had I not experienced that before the ministering wouldn't have had as much of an impact as it did. It was then that I understood the term, what the devil meant for bad God turned for his good. There are millions of men and women who have been molested, and raped. The devil desires to hold as many as he can in bondage, if he can impact you in someway he thinks he has won.

Remember God's promise concerning those who Rape you

"But if in the field the man finds the girl who is engaged, and the man forces her and lies with her, then only the man who lies with her shall die. ²⁶"But you shall do nothing to the girl; there is no sin in the girl worthy of death, for just as a man rises against his neighbor and murders him, so is this case."

God is the Avenger of every situation that is displeasing to him. Don't feel like it is your fault because its not. The devil wanted something that he can't get you to hand to him and thats your Dignity. Those who have been through this rise up above that situation. Yes the pain hurts but we all serve a God who can take it all away. Let the situation empower you, and strengthen you to help others. You can never change the situation but you can change how it affects your life. I have two daughters and I refused to allow a rape to hinder me from being all that I can be for my girls.

Confess. Share. Give. and Let Go.

Confess the situation, Express your feelings towards it, Give it all to God, and Let him fix it.

Be Blessed in knowing whose you are and how much he LOVES him some YOU.